DUMITRIANA, 28 years old
The phone – The portal to the world.
A thought. A sound. A look.
What time is it? I look at the phone.
How is mom? I pick up the phone and call her.
How is that secondary school classmate? I pick up the phone and open Facebook…Facebook… or is she on Insta?
Ah.. how simple life is since telephones have appeared. And how sweet and pleasant.
I can be smart, educated, with a perfect body and no one will notice the difference between the profile created and the reality. I can talk if I feel like doing it. I can express myself anytime, anywhere…offend (just for fun).. and with its help I can still have the courage to say that I like you. If I really do. 🙂
It’s always with me and tells me everything I want to know about who I want to know. And though…
What would I do if this portal disappeared?
I daily realize how much it changes me, how much I lose myself… how controlled I let myself be and how lazy and apathetic I became…
Do I still think…hear…see?
All in all, I still wake up alone… In fact, what a bummer! Even in the morning it still wakes me up :). Yes. The alarm rings in the morning. I press snooze. Ahhh! I can sleep a little more. I don’t even close my eyes properly that I hear it again. Ready! I take the phone in my hand and switch any possibility of yelling at me. Who can stand the noise in the morning? And… I’m still sleepy, but I have to wake up. And if I don’t let it wake me up, I’ll fall back asleep and there’s no one to wake me up.
Well, I can at least put off getting out of bed. I take the phone that a few minutes ago I wanted to smash. What else can I do? I scroll on Facebook. Hmm… the horoscope! Um… “you’re going to have a hard day at work and marital problems”. I hate it. Ok, I’m single, I can’t have marital problems but…what about work? Hm.. it was already difficult to find this place. “Go to hell, horoscope!”. I scroll on another page.. “No, they didn’t post it right”. Scroll.. scroll.. It’s more decent on another page. “You’ll be lucky in love and you’ll have a surprise from the family in the evening” :)). I’m having fun, but I like it more. OK. This is it!
I ‘ve fixed it with the horoscope. I remember being nervous about waking up so early. Let me find something to cheer me up. I can’t find anything but I don’t give up hope yet. I’m still searching. I get bored after 15 minutes and realize that I have to get up to make my coffee as it’s getting late and I’ll be late for work.
I put the phone down for two minutes.
Morning routine. I get up. I go to the kitchen. I take the kettle. I put it on. I go to the bathroom to wash my face. I go back to the kitchen and put the coffee in the kettle. I wait for it not to boil over because I hate wiping the cooker. The coffee is ready. I pet the cat a little bit (if it meows to remind me that it exists) then… I take the phone and go to the toilet. There’s no way to sit there without your phone. After I finish here, I go to get my coffee from the kitchen. Of course I have my phone in my hand with some video playing in the background. I used to smoke and work with my hands. Now I can just distract myself and enjoy the flavor of the morning with the posts of my Facebook “friends”, the news, I can only drink my coffee through the portal.
I finish my coffee. It’s 9 o’clock and with disorganized interest… I get to work.
By 5 pm I keep my hands off. Phew… I get rid of the phone a bit!
And.. believe it or not?! Now it has a substitute: the laptop. But that’s work and it doesn’t make me feel guilty about losing touch with reality. No, it really annoys me and I may say it’s not fair. Why keeping my eyes only on the laptop? It’s immoral and unhealthy. I hurt my eyes! Which eyes? And now what do we have eyes for? Pictures? News? Videos and tik toks… useless live sessions?
Hey !We’ve evolved! And technology has evolved too…
Really ? What for?
“Have you seen what a beautiful sunrise was there in the morning? Have you?”
Let me take my phone. There is, for sure, someone who’s posted it.